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The Way It Is

Posted on February 24, 2013

A few months ago we went to a fundraiser for a local organization called Art in the Public Eye. Sean and I walked around scanning the silent auction items before bidding on a few different things, one of which was a family fun pack for three hours at a Lake George Arcade. I think somehow the idea of bidding on (and winning) a kid-friendly item tempered the guilt of another late night out without them. The certificate has been on the side of the fridge ever since. The other day we decided it offered the perfect opportunity to do something entirely kid-centric. The certificate didn’t really explain what it represented, upon showing it at at the counter we were told, “Here’s a bucket of…

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Keep Your Head When…

Posted on February 22, 2013

A little over five years ago I was writing about reckoning heartbreak, as a moment in time refused to be ignored and I had to reevaluate what I was doing as a parent. The decisions I was making in the interest of having it all were taking a toll on all of us in ways that just weren’t worth the effort. Here I am, smack dab in the middle of another school vacation week trying to manage the things that were scheduled before vacation was on my radar, coping with the always crippling guilt of not feeling a desperate pull to take time off of work, and another intersection has appeared, virtually out of thin air. It’s funny because I’ve try to teach the girls…

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Six

Posted on February 19, 2013

Six has always been one of my favorite numbers. My love for it only grew as I experienced Briar as a six year old and now Avery. There is something so transformative about the age, I remember my own time at 6 and genuinely marvel in all that the girls are discovering, shedding and claiming for their own. Reading Bethany’s post on six was a gift. The way she wrote it would leave me completely green with envy if I didn’t love it so much. It is spot on six! Go, enjoy it, almost as much as you enjoyed being six yourself. Six. Aidan Donnelley Rowley Age 1 Kristen Levithan Age 2 Nina Badzin Age 3 Galit Breen Age 4 Allison Slater Tate Age…

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Force

Posted on February 18, 2013

I remember practicing penny drops and dead man’s drops on the bars at Harris Elementary School in the early 80s. Before mastering either, you started with the help of a friend, they would hold your hands and do the dramatic swing chant, “One, two, three…” and the first couple you couldn’t do it, “No, wait.” Eventually though, you took the turn that finally gave you the freedom to penny drop alone. I loved the sensation of swinging my body back and forth until I felt that perfect balance of speed and height. I would flip my legs, launching myself out away from the bar and then quickly turn and plant my feet on the ground, maybe I’d throw my arms up ala Nadia Comaneci…

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Without a Doubt

Posted on February 12, 2013

This July I will turn 40. I’m not afraid of it, I’m kind of fascinated by who I’ve become. As the girls are getting bigger and as each birthday puts more distance between my 20-something self and who I am now, I consider what almost was. What if I had stayed so completely insecure? I’ve often daydreamed about being able to speak to the people from back then, but honestly though, the person I’d most like to talk to is Amanda. We’d probably meet at the baseball fields at the community college; the fields are long since covered by campus expansion. I’d be smoking and probably looking deliberately disheveled, part of the lack of confidence back then manifested in a desire to preempt anyone saying…

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