I used to believe that there was a formula—
…step on a crack, break your mother’s back
I thought that if even against my better judgement or despite my best efforts, if I indeed stepped on a crack that I could avoid the next seven and take it back.
Take it back. Take back Dawn dying, take back [...]
There are no magic words, no perfect stanza to use when a child dies. My heart is broken for a boy I never met, but who I loved through the first picture I saw of him. The son of one of my dearest childhood friends, he was familiar in a way I could never articulate. [...]
New memories of my childhood flutter back as I watch our girls grow. They chase one another’s milestones like inch worms; just as one slows another launches forward. I remember what it felt like to stay home alone for the first time or when my parents finally let me hold a paint roller. Sometimes I’ll [...]
I remember right before we got married someone said to us, “Take a moment. Forget about thanking people for coming or about when the next toast is, just take a moment. The day goes by so fast and you deserve one sliver of time for just the two of you.” I remember not understanding, but [...]
A little over five years ago I was writing about reckoning heartbreak, as a moment in time refused to be ignored and I had to reevaluate what I was doing as a parent. The decisions I was making in the interest of having it all were taking a toll on all of us in ways [...]
Last week was chock full of sick kids, wild scenarios and, well, just about everything but the snowfall that was predicted. Saturday Sean had a gig in Lake George from 4-8pm, unusually early on account of Winter Festival. I decided to take the girls and make a night of it. The venue is right on the [...]
Sean and I met at the Williamstown Theatre Festival. It was not a simple courtship (are any?), but very little is simple when you’re working in summer stock and have the relentless deadlines and pervasive spirit of temporariness. Eventually though, we made it past the distractions and the monumental chip on my shoulder to discover [...]
It was just a regular Sunday here. I did some laundry, stripped the beds, made a grocery list and took Ave with me to the store. As usual, the final tally was double what I intended, both in cost and time. I shrugged it off because I was having great one-on-one time with Ave and [...]
This June Sean and I will celebrate 10 years of marriage. Seems impossible to believe, because I can still feel that June sun beating down on us as we stood before the minister. The crescendo of nursing, diapering, strollering and co-sleeping has quieted. They reach for their own cups, they read books to one another [...]
I love clouds. The other day I posted on Facebook about how clouds remind me of my grandmother.
Today we took to the lake, a last sprint into the waning light of summer. We didn’t plan, packed light, and simply went where the day took us.
From the start it was beautiful. Big, billowy clouds that [...]