Now
Thu, Jul 15, 2010
It’s been five days. The first day I rested. The second day I reeled. The third day I dipped my toe into a new normal. The fourth day I crumbled. Today I am in a struggle between what I want, what I know and what my body says through unexpected dizzy spells, shortness of breath and unprecedented fatigue.
I want to have the grace to be thankful for the way things turned out, but the truth is grace falls to the wayside with three kids. There are questions to answer, scrapes to kiss and things to do on the floor, on your side, upside down and beneath three bodies.
I want to be there. In it.
I am realizing that I am, even though it doesn’t feel like it.
There is a pirate’s cure on an imaginary boat with a pirate’s cap.
Princess dreams atop layers of pink with smatterings of sparkles and cuddles.
I don’t like the naps, resent the sedentary orders and want to be doing, doing doing. Just when I feel as if I have missed something, I am reminded the only thing that I’ve missed is that they are willing to wait.
That I am worth waiting for.
That I am ever so lucky to be in this embrace.
Now is for living.
Wonderful as always. Glad you’re on the mend.
I know it’s hard to be still. But you must.
Take care and enjoy that “pirate’s cure.”
Eat some red meat. And spinach. Seriously – for the iron. Here’s to a swift return to the old normal.
Hang in there – this is probably the hardest part, in a way. The in-between of the worst part and the feeling better. You can see things getting back to normal on the horizon, but you need to remind yourself not to rush it. Let your body heal. Let your girls take care of you. This empathy and patience is a valuable lesson for them.
This is the hardest part…but please, let them love and cure you as you rest. It does no one, especially you, to rush it. xoxo
You are clearly not milking this for all it’s worth. I believe you need chocolate chip cookies and buckets of Starbucks coffee delivered to your couch. You must sit very still and not move too quickly to have them arrive at your lap. It’s like sitting in the sunshine waiting for a bird to land on your finger, only better because it’s coffee and chocolate.
Be patient. Please.
Those little faces are killing me. My heart is all a pitter-patter over that wee eye peeking at you. Yeesh. The adorableness is overwhelming.
I wonder sometimes if it’s so hard to still our bodies because then we really have to pay attention to our brains who do not like quiet as much as we’d imagined they would. I also know it’s nearly impossible to be sedentary with children around. I hope you you find space to heal in all the necessary ways.
Those images are beautiful. Isn’t live marvelous?
life even.
So happy to know you are recovering…such a scary ordeal.
Your sweet girls caring for you warms my heart
keep resting
xo
you are absolutely right, now is for living and appreciating everything you are. time alas isn’t the same as forever.
gorgeous girl.
OMG! Somehow I missed the original post… I’m so glad you’re OK and that you have such an awesome support system!! How scary that must have been for you, your friends and family! Hope you’re feeling back to normal soon!!!
Take care of yourself. It’ll make it all the faster that you get back to them, all the way.
Lovely. All of you. You’re worth waiting for. XO